I’ve been feeling a little mixed-up today. July 15th is a weird day for me and I feel as though it might always be from now on.

You see, a year ago today I graduated from The University of Derby with a first class degree in Creative Writing. All of my hard work and perseverance in fighting towards my dreams had finally paid off, and it was one of the proudest moments of my life when I walked across that stage to collect my diploma.

You see, it was never part of the plan – a career in writing. When I enrolled at uni, I was in a Psychology course. I didn’t know writing courses were a thing. Dumb, I know, but it wasn’t something I had come across. So after switching course and working my ass off for three years straight, my graduation was something extremely special to me as I’m sure it is for many people.

Unfortunately, during the ceremony, I noticed my family – who was seated at the back of the arena – were nowhere to be seen. Something seemed off. It turned out that my granddad had passed away that morning, during my graduation ceremony.

Of course I was devastated — I had only seen him the day before and he seemed great. He was happy. He was intent on coming to my ceremony. Honestly though, I felt he was right by my side the entire time.

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Guys, forgive me for talking about this on the blog today, but please understand that this daily blog of mine acts as a kind of diary for me and so on days in which I may struggle to produce anything creative/interesting, I might use the post as a form of therapy for myself. I know that many of you might read this and think it’s a private matter – family life isn’t something to post in a blog. I can appreciate that. But I will say, it has helped me a little today. I was feeling a little lost and usually I’m an extremely secretive person – somebody who struggles to open up to people, even people I love dearly. Writing things down comes easier.

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I will also say that, I didn’t intend for this to be a therapy session, I wanted to celebrate July 15th – I will celebrate my wonderful Grandad John Watson and my graduation ceremony – including everything I have proudly achieved in the year since. I just wish he was here to see it.

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